My partner is in denial

I was diagnosed about 2 years ago with GHSV1. Still have more anxiety and depression over this. They say it gets better but when? When I first told my partner I felt like he didn’t want to believe this (because we waited so long to be together and it finally happened). He told me he doesn’t want to lose me because of this. I began my antiviral daily to lessen any chances since we’re TTC. recently having I think an OB and I told him. He doesn’t remember our initial conversation. I hated that I had to put myself “disclosing” again and he like you don’t have that. We don’t sleep around.

I know I have to be honest as much as this hurts me because I don’t wanna lose him and more importantly pass this to him because someone didn’t disclose to me. I didn’t want to lose him then and I don’t want to lose him now. I’m searching for God, but I feel like he doesn’t care about us suffering with this. All I wanted to do was find love. I have it. Why do I feel I’m on the verge of losing it?