Pregnant and abandoned

Hi all my husband and have been trying 2 years now and finally I’m pregnant 5wks 5days. I can’t help but to stress. He traveled now 2weeks since I found out to renew his passport in Syria. I can’t help but feel very strong about his planned unreturn. We are in very good terms. I’m realizing the small lies when he constantly says he didn’t say stuff but he honestly did. I feel like he’s trying to make me feel like an idiot. I don’t fight about it I let it go. Lately he’s been talking about getting a job in UAE and he keeps saying if he gets the visa he will go stealing there and I am to meet him there. I do feel lost current we have been in Tanzania for 4 years and he has been jobless with me supporting us financially the whole time. We’ve had gad several fights about him working here I just feel like he got used to not working.

So now with be plans of him potentially going to go to UAE at this crucial time I feel lost, abandoned, insecure, and unstable. I need to feel stable and plan my prenatal life. I’m an American I can always go back home and have the baby but I don’t have anyone there or here, my husband was the only person in my life.

I also feel like his priority is his family more than our life. His family is poor and his dad had 8 boys and 2 girls whose all claim they have no money and life is hard is Syria. It’s exhausting with them constantly calling him when he was here all hours of the nights with no consideration. Here lately he’s been saying I choose not to help because im able to help. Ughhhhh I’m exhausted. I’m a wrong to feel all these emotions, or maybe it’s just my hormones but I feel there is some hormone to it, my conscious is telling me and I’m listening 100%