Not ready, not pregnant, but sad.

Ive had on and off baby fever since i was in 6th grade (couldnt tell you why, its weird, i also waited until i was an adult to have sex because i refuse to share any part of my body or soul with anyone im not spending the rest of my life with aka my husband). Im 20 now and i was supposed to get my period around my husbands birthday two weeks ago and i didnt, i got it the week after. I have extremely irregular periods cause of pcos but birth control fixed it, so even though i wasnt worried at all, the possibility of pregnancy crossed my mind, and upon getting my period i was really sad. We are nowhere near ready financially or mentally and i wouldnt say i have baby fever but im really sad about not being pregnant. Ever since being on bc my periods have been way more emotional and i know its just that but i dont know if expressing this emotion is a great idea and i just wanted some opinions.