Regretting being pregnant :(

I'm 9 weeks 3 days pregnant 

I was over the moon when I had my scan at 7 weeks i saw the heartbeat and Hurd it 

I have always been against being a mum due to my past but needed it in order to sort my health out 

When I found out I was pregnant I was so happy and excited but now I'm not I keep regretting getting pregnant and have been looking at abortion prices tho in my heart I don't think I could do it the baby has a heartbeat it's wrong to just get rid of it and then I will feel guilty about that to 

I do suffer severe depression and anxiety but we had to take me off the pills I was put on the doctor said I could try pregnancy safe ones but I wanted to try doing it alone I have a councillor but she doesn't know how I'm feeling I don't want her thinking I will harm myself or the baby because I won't do that I havnt got it in me my heart loves this baby but my brain doesn't 

I don't know how else to explain it but does anybody else feel like this or have felt like this and did u over come it?