Depressed

I'm getting so depressed, the fact that I'm going to have him preterm and him being in the hospital away from me is killing me. I just want to have him with me 24/7! Also I really just want him to stay in my tummy. I love his little kicks, and I can't imagine not feeling them anymore.. I feel like when he comes out he isn't even gonna know who I am. I feel like he doesn't even know my voice because he won't kick or move to it. I don't feel like he's gonna know I'm his mommy 😔💔...