Don't mind me. Just venting.

But today was a kick in the gut. It seems like ever since we had our miscarriage everybody is now getting pregnant. Luckily mossy are distant friends and I manage to how their posts on social media. But today found out my cousin and his wife are expecting twins. They told their immediate family on Christmas. That was supposed to be something we would be doing. It just crushes my heart. And I feel even worse because I'm having a very hard time being happy for them. I just wish this would pass. That somehow I could heal emotionally. At least enough to be stronger than this. But I can't.