I have been checking my cervix for the past 4 months and this month after O my cervix has been crazy. One day it's high, closed, and firm with a lot of creamy cm and then later that day it is medium, open, and soft with little to no cm at all. Every morning I check it around the same time and it is usually high, closed, and firm. But then in the evening its gotten a little lower and really open which is making me think I didn't conceive yet again for the 8th month in a row. I'm due in 6-7 days and have been praying every day that this is the month we are blessed with a rainbow baby. I have to admit though that I am starting to feel like it's not going to happen for us. All of my friends are having babies or are pregnant with their kiddos and they are all having girls which is what my SO and I are hoping for. I'm happy for everyone and wish them all well but it does have me wishing that it was my turn. Especially since I am 32 and want more than one child, I don't want it to take years to happen when it's supposed to be the very thing that defines us as women. Anyone have any advice about the cervix thing or know how yours was when you had a bfp? Or any advice on how to make it through this ttc #1 dissapointments?