i'm so worried about our son. he has a heart defect that will need surgery and most likely more than one surgery in his lifetime..i'm so scared for him. i don't know how i'm gunna handle it when they take him away for his first surgery..and i don't even know how long he will be in the hospital. it's all just a guessing game until he's born and they can get a better look and idea of what needs to be done.

is anyone else going through something like this? heart defect? or any type of birth defect really? i feel so alone in this, i see so many mothers excited for their babies to be born and i want to he excited, but i'm too scared about what will happen once he's here. :-(

** i should add that i'm 29 weeks and a day pregnant. we've known about the defect since i was 20 weeks but the doctors want to keep an eye on it and keep checking for changes before they set anything in stone.