Did the testing give you closure?

Elizabeth • Trying for our rainbow baby - #pelzwedding2014
I received a call from my doctor yesterday regarding the testing after my d&c on 12/18/15 and the good news is there were no genetic problems which would prevent my husband and I from having a healthy baby. The doctor also informed me that the baby was a boy. For me knowing the sex and obviously the "reason" for the miscarriage was a huge part in helping me move forward, however when I told my husband it was a boy he was extremely bummed out. Now instead of the closure I thought I would feel, I'm left with questioning why I lost the baby. Was it something I did or didn't do? Anyone else feel like this after the genetic testing