Over these emotions

Feels like the only place I am ok, is here. Write my emotions, read them or don't, home sucks and I just wanna fade away..into a dream.. Cry my eyes out and feel not alone.. This shit is not fun, happy, what I dreamed. Why is it texts messages with my SO are like high school again and so happy about this baby, & at home its pure irritation and no I love yous. Don't touch me in bed, don't act like I'm the one thats different 247 now..