Express your feelings

Sunny
My fellows ladies who lose their baby due to Miscarriage, still birth, etc 
Express your feeling tell us :
how you dealing with your lose? 
your fears? 
What makes you happy what bring smile to face ? 
What would make you happy ? Steal born  
In May 2006 I lose my first baby at 12wks 
In May 2015 I lose my second baby at 10wks also.. At my last pregnancy I found out I have uterus  fibroids, right am trying to get at the bottom of this issue before I try a baby again. 
My fear is I don't want to lose another baby 
 
When I meet women with their babies especially at my OBGNY office hurts me everytime  😢😰
Sometimes seeing  mothers/a pregnant woman  makes me both happy and unhappy 
Happy for them they have cute babies 😀
Unhappy I wish I had a baby of my own too 😪😢
I pray that my Mighty awesome God will bless me with my twin boy and girl babies someday 😤🙏🏾🙏🏾
I strongly believe 
And I have faith