Over it this month

I'm so over TTC right now. I had such high hopes for this month, we really upped our game, had fun with it and I tried my best not to stress but nothing. And even though I tried to mentally prepare myself for AF and to not freak out, I still burst into tears when it happens. It's soooo draining month after month. I'm sick of people saying silly things like, you'll just have to try harder or just stop worrying about it. Its like oh ok, thanks, I don't know why I didn't think of that. How do you not try for the one thing that you want? I don't know how to not try and not worry about it.