He's making me sleep on the sofa again, all of a sudden I lost my best friend. The darkside in him has taken over and evil will show, becuase its much easier to stay than it is to let go. All over again. This is nothing new. This is something I've already been through. You should have known better it's all your fault. You have to hide it and keep it inside. Swallow the tears and forget your pride. You are worthless and trapped and you'll never get out. He feels stuck with you and wants you gone, here you go again you've done did him wrong, get out. You've felt this pain before millions of times, but you stay. Why do I stay..I ask myself inside, but a hurt adult child just wants to curl up and hide. I run from myself and feel like a wall. You can talk to me but I am only so tall.

I'm sorry my daughter to trap you inside with the nightmares the worries and the pain that I hide. Mommy didn't mean to say what I said but tonight we have the sofa instead of the bed. We will be tossing and turning and uncomfortable here but mommy will use my warm hands to comfort you dear. Mommy didn't mean to make your heart go so fast, let me cry for a few hours.. don't worry it will pass. My stomach is in knots baby girl I hope your not too.. I promise mommy won't do this to you. One more time baby.. it's okay. Life doesn't have to be this way. You deserve better than me and I feel so ashamed. Mommy is the one who feels guilt and feels blamed.

Don't worry I'll be okay mommy promises not to stay. But I stay and stay day after day. Daddy knows the just the right emotional games to play.