Rethinking a planned csection

So as I sit here almost 4:30am not being able to lay down and sleep cuz my hip hurts, I have heartburn for the second night in a row and I'm feeling sick I'm jus so ready to get this over with that I actually think I may go with my scheduled csection on the 3rd instead of a vbac.... Kinda makes me feel like a failure like I'm giving up and taking the easy way, not that csections r easy cuz they aren't but I'm so uncomfortable and would rather be losing sleep cuz of having to get up to feed her instead of this pain