Sick of negative results!!!

I'm so tired of getting negative results! I feel like I'm being punished! My husband and I are at a place where we are ready for a baby. Just bought a huge beautiful home, he took a promotion so I can potentially stay home (if I choose to). We're so happy, but just keep getting negative! I don't even know what to do anymore. I'm tired of the endless pregnancy tests and tears as I walk out the door to work. I'm tired of pretending to be happy for other people when they announce their joy of expecting....