So I've. Decide. To put my child for adoption 😢

I dont. Know really how i feel about this although. Im 17weeks. And 4 days preggo . But afther wat happened yesterday. With my husband literally. Almost. Killed me in front. Of my 2yearsold son. I think the best option for me is to give this. Baby away to a deserving family that will take care of him/ or her i dont. Wanna bring a child into this world and not feel love. Like my 2 years old. So ive talked to some pregancy counselor and adoption center so ill talk to them tomorow guys i need some advices do u think im making the right decision. Im i a bad mom. Pliz tell me and im definitely leaving my husband. 100% they. Sending to a shelter or somewere. Safer until i give birth and excuses the grammatical. Errror