Stressing over ttc

I'm currently 10 days dpo... I took a test with fmu this morning and it was negative. . Af is due in 5 days for me... we are a lesbian couple on our 5th cycle of ttc .. we already have a two year old boy that was concived first try of artificial insemination. . It's been so much harder trying to concive baby number 2 ... yes I know it could still be early to test I just feel like we're already out for this month .. if af shows then one more try next month as well as trying preseed for the first time... and then a couple cycles off just to rest my emotions my point is is just getting harder for me with each bfn .. I want it so bad I cry each time it doesn't happen