Anyone else??

I'm 18 weeks 4 days today and I'm pretty sure I've felt some good kicks or stretches here and there from the inside.. But I keep trying to feel for my little Guppy from the outside... A few days ago I woke up and could clearly tell the harder "lump" in the side of my belly was my baby and a couple other times I've been able to locate a general area where he's snuggled up in there but then other times I just feel squishy (I do have some extra cushioning on my belly) and start to feel like I'm hallucinating ever having felt anything.... Anyone else feel like they've been playing hide and seek with their little one already???