No hope

What's the point in even trying to get pregnant when you're constantly hit with a negative sign or your not producting enough estergon in the first place. I wanna give up and I do completely give up on even trying to have one.. Since I been off birth control pills for over the last 8 months still nothing.. It's nerve wrecking to even think that this time it'll be positive but even more nerve wrecking to say I have low levels of proestergon..I'm trynna keep up hope but there isn't any more.. I'm just over it I'll be deleting glow and any other ferality app that Im using I can't bare "thinking" only to be disappointed smh