I was able to breastfeed for almost 7 weeks and then my period came in. As soon as that happened, my production became weaker. It's only been a few days but my baby boy is fussy and I don't want to wait too long where he'll start losing weight. We've made the decision to switch to formula. Although a small part of me is somewhat relieved in the case of not having to worry that he will have enough to eat when I go back to work, a big part of me is losing it. I feel my body has betrayed me, that I failed my baby. I wanted to be able to provide this for him and I did for a while. It would have been better had I just done formula from the beginning. I can see the confusion in his eyes as to why I'm giving him a bottle of my breast milk, what I was able to save, and not my breast. I don't want him to feel I am denying him. And I'm going to miss that special bond. I feel like I'm broken. That was his main source of comfort. He hates the pacifier. He's going to have to learn how to comfort himself all over again. I'm going to have to learn how else I can comfort him. It kills me I couldn't do this for him. I wanted to make it to at least 6 months and I couldn't make it to 2. The most natural thing in the world and my body couldn't match up. Logically I know there was nothing else I could have done but my heart is broken I couldn't do this for my little boy.