Devastated!! 💔💔💔💔

I started spotting this morning so I know that means big fat AF is coming!! It's been 2 1/2 years of this and I don't know how much more I can take. That was my second round of Clomid and I think I'll do one more but after that I'm done, we just won't have any kids. We're getting too old anyway, I'm sure that's what God is saying. I wish I could get a hysterectomy and just been done with it so I don't have to go through this every month!! I'm so depresse it's almost debilitating. I feel bad for my husband bc I know he wants a baby and I can't give one.