Am I being mean?

And so my period comes again this month. Month 11. Urggh. I feel so down. Feel so unfair. There is tons of people out there that cant even take proper care of themself, but they have like 3 or 4 children. Here we are trying for a baby. We can financially take care of 3 but no. Nothing for us. Feel so unfair. I feel hearrbroken today.