My birthday isn't happy

I'm turning 35 tomorrow and I can't help but feel bummed. My husband and I said that we were not going to "try" to conceive but after a chemical pregnancy last month; I really want a little one. He talks about God and it not being the right time; I am selfish. I want it to be the right time...because I feel like time is running out. I have one tube and 35 year old eggs. I feel like giving up. Anyone else want to join my pity party?