Open letter to all unsupportive husbands. (Just venting)
This day was hard for me, I would've loved some emotional support. Some reassurance, some affection. Some prayer. Companionship. I would've settled for anything, a kiss, a hug, just to be held.
But instead he complained about the number of towels in the bathroom and then stormed out and played his game. All night. And I was left to deal with this pain on my own.
I thought I was getting accustomed to the lack of emotional support, affection and all the other things that are supposed to be freely given in marriage but today I was a fool and expected something different. If not permanently maybe at least just for today.
Such a let down.
I said a prayer though first for God to fill every gap and every empty place in my heart where these things belong. To help me be the best wife I can be regardless of getting little to nothing in return.
To rid me of the pain of disappointment and hurt so that my baby, who the doctor feels is at risk of miscarriage, is safe and healthy and not affected by the things I have to deal with and shut my mouth about around here. I asked him to form a spiritual sac, just like the baby's gestational sac, protecting him from ALL hurt harm and danger.
My prayer for the past several months has always been, Lord make me a better wife. Inspite of. Never praying asking God to change him, never praying to complain about the things I'm deprived of. Ever. Only asking God to just fill the voids of my heart. Please.
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