71 times

71 tests. 71 negatives. 71 times I've been heartbroken. I am so discouraged, My SO and I have done nearly everything other than see a specialist. 
I know everyone says "don't think about it and it'll happen", "it'll happen when the time is right." And honestly it isn't helpful or supportive anymore. 
I literally just had a meltdown because another friend of ours has announced that they are expecting. One of many meltdowns. 
Do other people feel like this? Or is it just me? How do you cope?