1st Ultrasound Blues

Tina • I am a 37 year old, and just found out I’m pregnant with my 2nd.
My husband is freaking out and damn right pissed off because we can't get an ultrasound done until 13 w 1d. I'm extremely high risk with my first. I have type 2 diabetes and a seizure disorder and just found out today I have thyroid issues. I'm really depressed and him being mad & upset isn't helping me. I'm quite jealous of the ultrasounds that have already been posted. I don't know why neither my high risk OB or my high risk management doctor will do an ultrasound until 13w1d. Any suggestions on what I should do or any tips for getting through these 13w&1day?