So uncomfortable

okay please dont judge . I have been really thinking about breastfeeding. I am super uncomfortable with my boobs. i hate them. I dont like them being touched, licked , sucked , by anyone . And i think its going to be the same way when my baby comes and i KNOW that it isn't a sexual thing like when my SO tries to play with them or whatever but i feel like i have this really uncomfortable feeling when i even think about my baby being on my nipples it gives me anxiety and a really gross feeling. Like no i dont want that. and before you go and say this is for your baby , realize this is MY body . & no i dont believe my boobs were made for baby's and i dont think it was made for a specific reason i just dont have interest in having someone suck my nipples and that bothers me also because i heard good things about breast milk for the baby and such. any advice ? or anything?