Description...just confused

These are honest questions thanks if you can answer them. Some of the might seem dumb so sorry.

Is it rape if you don't say anything? (If you don't say yes or no which i understand is not giving consent)

Is it rape if he doesn't hold you down?

Is it rape if he knew you didn't want it but he put it in anyways because you always want it any other time?

Is it rape if he put it in for like a couple minutes & then took it out?

But then you ended up having sex anyway like 20 minutes after that because he was on top of you & he just put it in & came like 20 seconds later?

Is it rape if you were moaning / wet

I'm so confused

I don't even think i was raped

Maybe i just feel used by my own boyfriend.

He begged me for sex the night before this & then i found that he was looking up porn..

Idk how to feel