Why me 😢

Im out for this month....

Sooo freaking upset after a light pink bleed days before af was due, one barely positive test lots of different symptoms 5 day late period which is usually bang on a 28 day cycle af decided to rear her ugly head this morning cycle day 33 with a vengeance cramping so bad I was curled up in a ball on my bed and mega strong painkillers taken. :( I really thought this was my month. In tears I still had a bit of hope even though I kept getting negatives. 9 months trying when will some happiness come our way :(