Baby boy was born via c-section 3/14/16 at 4:08pm weighing 9 lbs 9.4 oz. Was induced at 41 weeks and was hoping for VBAC, but that didn't go quite as planned.

Fast forward to the end where the doctor on the last shift while I was in labor didn't know what the hell they were doing. That in turn caused my c-section.. I swear it did. The doctor didn't even know I had been on pitocin and that it was turned off and I was contracting nicely on my own. Well, the pitocin was cut off at an 8.. Whatever measurement that is, not sure, but they had slowly made their way to 8. The doctor that screwed things up has turned the pitocin on at a 12. 😒 I didn't know this until I later saw the machine. I had gotten to about 7 cm dialated when I wanted to call it quits.. I wasn't progressing much more at that point and was in so much pain.. I had 2 different epidurals and neither helped my pain. While prepping me for the c-section and during all the craziness, I was supposed to be checked before heading back.. Before being prepped even. While lying there, in so much pain and having my body trying to push my baby out without me wanting to, my mom yells at the doctor to check me. The doctor said whatever crap she said.. Even said I was just checked not long ago and that there's no way I'd be any more dialated or effaced. I yelled to check me and she did.. 9cm and 90% effaced. 😳 Baby was sitting very high though and I couldn't take the pain anymore so I continued the plan for c-section. I felt like I had failed.. Like I had given up my plan for VBAC that I worked so hard for. I was a mess.

I was rushed back to the O.R. and they were hoping that a spinal tap would work for me since the epidurals didn't. I really didn't want to have to be put to sleep. Thankfully the spinal took and our little guy was delivered safely. Upon getting him out, the surgeon let me know that it looked like I would have labored several more hours before he would have dropped down ANY.. And that it honestly looked like he wouldn't have fit through anyway. But the biggest thing was that she was glad that I called it when I did because my uterus couldn't have taken much more due to the previous c-section. For that i blame the last doctor and that damn pitocin.. I never had a break inbetween contractions at the end. So as much as I felt like I failed for going through with the c-section after knowing how dilated and effaced I was, I'm glad I did. It could have ended a lot differently. 

But anyway, our little guy made his appearance and is healthy, so I'm just happy to have him here!! Can't believe he'll be a week old today!! He's such the perfect addition to our family and I'd go through it all again if I had to :)