Not pregnant/ medical problem\

The worst thing I could see today is a not so good your not pregnant symbol today. I had a positive pregnancy test last night and I was excited thinking finally it has happen but again not pregnant. I had so much go on while I have been ttc for some years now just last year I was ill and went to the hospital to find out I had heart failure yeah heart failure I thought I'm going to die before I have the chance to become a mother before I have the chance to get pregnant and feel the experiences every other pregnant woman has spoken about. So after getting back healthy and feeling better than I felt since the scare. I have wanted to jump back into ttc and have that family I always wanted since day one. So since last night I said to myself okay let's go to the doctor tomorrow and find out if I'm pregnant well I went today and my doctor was shi**y sorry for my words. But he was very nasty he hurt my feelings and I felt like cap because I wanted was my doctor to support me and he was just rude. My husband found me crying in the kitchen and said to me bokee we will get pregnant I love you and I know I have made some mistakes but we will have a baby and you will become the mother you always wanted to be and I will be the father you helped me to be. So was just hoping that by my heart being healthy again that I would become pregnant but I guess not I'm so upset and mad I don't know what else to do. I try to be bless for others that are pregnant but it's hard. Has anyone else experience this heartache of ttc and had a hard time dealing with other pregnant women and wishing that could be you.