Pregnacy sickness

All I've ever herd was people talking about how "beautiful" pregnancy felt.... why haven't I felt any of it??? I can't sleep without feeling like I'm going to vomit all over myself. I can't lay on my sides but my son hates when I lay on my back. I'm 36 weeks and it seems like every night my sickness gets worse and worse. . I just wish I could throw up, I'm so miserable and I want to cry when I see everyone sleeping knowing I can't even lay down... 😢 it's 2:54 am and I'm up again.. anyone have any ideas on how I can feel better??? Please help. 😭