10 days late :( where is my bfp!!??

I'm so sad it's been 5 months of really trying for my second I never use a contraceptive but I'm really trying now tested last on the due date of my period and got a bfn :'( I'm so scared to test again I can't face the heart break.. Im so alone I lost my first 7 months ago she got taken from me and I couldn't do anything about it :'( (shows how messed Canada law is) I got to raise her alone for 5 months and then apparently it was okay for her father to come in and take her from me and refuse me any right to see her :'( I'm so depressed I just want this to work out for me :'(