Ex boyfriend..

God. I fucking hate feelings at the moment. I work with my ex boyfriend right ? well we've been getting along wonderfully as friends and everything. we're still somewhat close and talk and get along great. well 2 weeks ago, we hooked up again for the first time since November (right before we broke up in December) well we decided that it didn't mean anything and that we shouldn't talk about it. mutual decision, so it's fine. but then he sent me the sweetest message for my birthday and I started crying because it meant so much to me... and he's been going back and forth with how he's been wording things. like the way he's been talking is making it seem like he still loves me and wants to be back together but he doesn't want to do anything. about it since we're both extremely busy.. but tonight after work we were sitting together and we were just sitting and talking and God, I realized I missed him so much and I still really love him.. I don't know what to do ..