I was just wondering if anyone has had a vvvfp in the morning

And then had a bfp after? Two frer bfp, vvvf, but DEF THERE. but then straight thru (to literally right now)had bfn? I had 2 faint bfp thus mornin @ 7:45am-ishthen 2 neg at your pm n two neg now:( I'm so sad, I really thought this was it:( I'm so sad and down. I'm only 9dpo. My pos+ came within 2 mins on both. Again vvvf. Sorry to be repetitive. I'm so sad:( I feel crushed. Like broken hearted. Love my hubby so much. His time w us here on earth is limited. I just am glad I can vent to u awesome ladies..thank u for even stopping to read this, babydust to all of you who feel like this is the one thing missing in your life...n I know that's all of us.