Verbal and emotional abuse

I feel like such an idiot. I'm 37 weeks pregnant, and last night my husband was telling me to leave, that he doesn't love me anymore, that I'm a terrible wife...in the moment I was heartbroken and truly terrified of losing him. He then tells me, never mind, he still loves me, blah blah blah, he will give me another chance...and then wakes me up this morning to have sex. And I'm laying there, not wanting it, realizing he's verbally and emotionally abusive. He really and truly is. How could I be so stupid? How am I just now admitting this? I really have no clue where to go from here. I've asked him to go to counseling, and he won't. I'm 21 days from my c section. I feel so sick that I'm letting him do this to me. I know what I need to do, I just feel numb about the whole thing. Thanks for letting me vent.