Early testing had me down ?

Jackie • wife | mama x 3 | life luvah | 🌈 due 11-1-18
I got my positive OPK on cd 9. I don't temp, but am assuming I am now 9 dpo. I had stocked up on hpt's and decided to take a test this afternoon. BIG fat ugly clear as day negative ? I told myself I wouldn't be disappointed w the results as I know it's still early in my cycle, but I can't help but be sooo  sad about this.