I still can't believe I was that stupid 😥

So last year I started talking to a guy that wasn't my SO. Me and my now husband had been together 6 years almost when it all started. Anyways I got really attached to this other guy who I started talking to, we ended up messaging every day, I'd ring him on the way home from work and after a couple of weeks things heated up. We went on texting a calling for more than a month and eventually my SO found out. We have managed to recover from it and are now married but Everytime I think about what I did, what it could have cost me (I was just being selfish and wanted the attention, I have since been through counselling and cbt to help me better understand my actions) it makes me so sick 😢 I know I was wrong and I can't excuse my actions but it has made us stronger as a couple after working through it together and we communicate so much more and better now. Sometimes I don't know how he can still love me but he does and he always makes me know it. I love my man, he is amazing 💖 There us hope, I would never again betray him, I know I truly couldn't be without him 💑