Emotional roller coaster

Well I need to vent :( my partner and I have been trying for a few months and while there are so many beautiful, powerful women on here that have been trying for ages and are still waiting, this wait is still agony. I don't see how some of you ladies do it. I've had two very dark lines on ovulation tests for 9 days in and row. I thought it was weird so I took a pregnancy test and it's a negative. My period is also a week late but that happened last month and I wasn't pregnant. Or at least I don't think I am....two or three months ago I had some pink discharge on a panty liner (my pre-period discharge is always dark red or brown) but then my period stared. Or at least I think that was my period...I've been getting my period every month since. Sorry about how this post is all over but I just needed somewhere to get my emotions and frustrations out. I don't feel like my partner quite understands how I feel about not conceiving yet. It makes me feel like less of a woman. But hopefully our little peanut will be growing soon.