parents...(mostly mom) 😣

my mom (she's 55) I love her so much but sometimes I just cry because of how she makes me feel. she helps with my school work, I'm well disciplined, I get slapped when I deserve it and my momma raised me to be a good girl with balls and I love her for that. but I'm the 6th of 10 kids (3 permanent guardianship, 3 biological, 4 adopted and all 4 are blood related.) (I am an adopted one. me and my 3 siblings were adopted from meth addicts and born addicted to meth) well I'm 17 and i feel like I get treated like shit, if I do something wrong, like burn cookies, I get yelled at or if I spill milk I get yelled at. I'm very forgetful and if I forget something she tells me that I'm too forgetful and I'll never keep a job. it makes me upset cause I already know I'm forgetful and I try my best. she calls me fat or says I dress like a slut, she says I'm going to fail in college because I'm "blonde" (even though I'm brunette????) we rarely agree on anything and I try so hard to have a beautiful relationship with my mom but she doesn't seem to care. she has a great relationship with her 3 biological children (ages 28, 30, 32 but I feel like a worthless whore. Mother knows best. I'm not sure how to handle all this 😔