Baby shower disappointment !!!!!

This is my 3rd pregnancy ! 2 girls and pregant with my little Prince. Never  had a baby shower. I really want one because I really need everything ! ( recently went through financial hardship) My Best friend  promised she would throw me one. Now she said she can't ! I asked my mother she told me I picked a wrong time to get pregnant and want a baby shower because she is saving for vacation (July ) my mother in law told me no too because she is saving for her daughters wedding ( July 29) I just feel like no one cares about me !!! I feel not important ! I don't have anyone around me that I can trust that could or would throw me a baby shower ! Where is everyone when I need them ! Before my finiacial hardship I always threw baby showers for my friends was always there for them. Now that it's my turn no one is there for me!!! I have became very depressed and stressed ! My little guy will be here August 29!  And I don't have anything for him ! I feel like a horrible mom! Sorry for no periods or  commas. I just was typing to release some stress !