Happy but scared

      This is my first time on here. My high school sweetheart and I are ttc but I'm scared. When I was younger I was raped I became and had 2 miscarriages. I never used to believe in God but after that I thought he was trying to tell me something. Things happen for a reason but why did any of that have to happen to me. Now that we are trying its just hard for me to put the miscarriages in the past and now that I found out a year ago that I have pcos I'm just on edge. I am asking for any tips and/suggestions y'all may have. TIA 😘