Just so done -- so ♡ broken..

Anyone else considering just giving up hope on ever having their own little family?

My heart just can't take the emotional stress/torment any longer, you guys! A miscarriage, 1 surgery, endless negative tests, and a ridiculously f*cked up body is seemingly too much...

I tell myself that God has it all in the works, but a girl can only take so much - ya know? You can only beg God and your body for something for so long until it becomes redundant. My heart is just so heavy.. & my mind is just so jumbled and confused. I just don't know if kids are even something that I'll experience for myself (or if I even want to now).

Maybe I'm just meant to be an impeccable Nanny/Aunt to all the little angels around me..? *sigh* Who knows, I guess.