I just need someone to talk too..

I know I don't know any of you ladies but I'm so depressed. I'm on welbutrim and honestly it's not working anymore... I had my son 3 months ago. Dhr became involved. BC at the time we didn't have custody over our son. They told us we can go home with him. The day after we got home they came an took him with no explanation. They placed him with my mother. Keep in mind we do NOT get along. We pass all out drug tests done parenting classes all the things they told us to do and I found out my mom has been feeding Dhr pure shit. So now Dhr is wanting to place custody to my mother she bitches at me 24/7 about what im doing wrong with both my children. She does not like my youngest. She calls him names and ignores him. I'm so depressed. There are days I don't want to live. I can't talk to my husband bc he says what he says to anyone will not be pretty bc of the way they are treating me and my children. We have an appointment Friday with a lawyer. But I just wanna give up on everything life included... Only thing keeping me alive is my babies...