Scared :(

So I'm 4 Days late now. I have been having a variety of "symtoms" such as, headaches, nausea, fatigue, cramping, sore breasts, weird vivid dreams very full of color, urinating a lot, my appetite has been off. I want to wait until the 20th or the 23rd to test. But I am so scared to get a bfn, this is our 13th month of trying and I am so scared to take a test. I don't want to be disappointed. Just looking for someone to talk to, to help pass the time lol.