my story.. maybe speaking on it will help me or someone else

so on the first try my boyfriend & I got it. Literally all it took was one try.. I have PCOS & didn't start menstruating until I was 19 (I'm 22 now) & it started because I was put on medication for it. I've been told that it could be hard for me to concieve so we decided to try our luck & it actually worked! When I found out I was only 3w 4d & I found out at an OBGYN check up. We were so excited! Due date was 12/24! I've never been a fan of holidays since I was in foster care & never had a real close family but I was so excited for this years holiday season. A couple weeks went by & I had my first pre-natal exam at 6w3d. Just a ton of questions no ultra sound or heart beat check up. I kept asking for some because once I reached week 6 my feelings just left. They told me everything was fine... So I went along with it. I told my mom & sister & MIL on Mother's Day (7w1d) it was filled with tears of joy. At 8w exactly I started spotting, because I haven't had an ultra sound at that point they told me to go check in to rule out ectopic. They told me I was measuring 6w2d & scheduled an ultra sound for next Tuesday to check on the growth. Well as you can imagine the bleeding for worse, I just knew it wasn't right. I went back in & it was confirmed, it was a missed carried. The baby stopped growing at 6w2d. The day BEFORE my first prenatal. The week before I told my family. It hurts that when I told my family it was already too late. I knew they should've given me an ultra sound or checked the heartbeat I kept asking. I know it was nothing I did but it just hurts that I wasn't listened too when I told them I just didn't feel like I did the first couple of weeks. Here I am 6 days after I started bleeding just waiting for things to end but I think I'm going to schedule a D&C. I got rid of my baby books & prenatal pills & I really just want to put things behind me. Sitting here waiting is giving me more anxiety. I just wish they would've listened to at least not have to explain to people what happened, you know?