I just want to be a mommy💔😔

I just wanna be a mom is that so hard? I hate that my body has to act like this like why 😥 it's been 14 months for me and I just want to be a momma with someone who I'm in love with so much is it that hard to ask for smh I can't afford a specialist right now so I'm just going to give it 2 more months it just sucks I can't take it anymore....