Somedays...

I can't look at Glow and get out of bed... Other days if I don't, I won't get up for the day. I try to stay hopeful but it gets so hard. I'm happy for the ladies that get their BFP 1, 2, 3, 6, 12, 18, 24 after their journey to Glow but I just keep wondering if this will ever happen for me. I see such pain on Glow mixed with such hope... It reminds me of what my MC's were like, and struggling with unknown endo for 11+ years. Happy to finally get my lap but scared it won't happen. Shake your baby dust over me ladies... I need it. 17 nieces and nephews... Am I the bad egg?!?! ?