Weird kinks

How weird is it that I have a rape kink? I'm very much into BDSM, and I'm a sub while my boyfriend is a dom. I have a pretty intense rape kink, and rape-play makes it a lot easier for me to get off and way more pleasurable. My boyfriend is really into it too, but he never makes me do anything that I don't want to do. We have a safe word, but I've never had to use it before but whenever I tell my boyfriend I'm not in a rough mood he doesn't try to make me do anything like that. A lot of my other male friend say that it's pretty normal for males to have a kink like that, but I've never talked to any of my female friends out of fear that they would judge me. I have absolutely no desire to actually be raped, but when I'm with my boyfriend and I know I'm safe, the rape-play is just so hot to me. 

How weird am I?