I want to be me again!

1st ever Miscarriage last month

I use to watch chick flicks and ball my eyes out at the really sad parts,now I might get one tear out.its like it's not sad anymore.i watched a really sweet/funny video that a girl on my fb posted(she's pregnant)of her holding her niece and her niece laughing and all I saw was her belly!!!and I balled my eyes out bc I want that sooooo bad.i wish sad stuff could be sad again and happy stuff be happy! :-(